Surrendering Resistances


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In Dr. David Hawkins book, “Transcending the Levels of Consciousness – Stairway to Enlightenment”, he states, “…the rate of evolution is up to the individual’s willingness to surrender resistances.”

What are some of the things you resist?  Do you resist giving or receiving Love? Do you resist intimacy?  Do you resist being wrong? Do you resist the surrender of control or power? Do you resist your more feminine or masculine characteristics? Do you resist your spouse or children, mother-in-law, etc.?  Do you resist the expression of your emotions?

In this same book he states, “Fear propagates in the individual by resistance and recedes with acceptance…

Prior to my retreat my resistances were even more pronounced (see previous post). Afterwards I seem to have a greater capacity for seeing them before fear begins to propagate. The increased Self awareness that comes from consistent spiritual work, transforms these resistances into opportunities to practice acceptance.

One such opportunity arose recently when having to confront my neighbor regarding a fence he was building, adjacent to ours, which wasn’t up to code.  I found myself resisting this boundary setting experience immensely!  I found that I resist confrontation with others and my body simply reels internally when such opportunities for this type of growth appear.  My wife and I asked for grace to approach this situation bravely despite our resistance and we resolved to accept my neighbors reaction with as little judgement as possible.

Needless to say he wasn’t receptive to the boundaries we were asking to be set and walked away frustrated during our discussion.  Although no resolution was reached, almost immediately my resistance and the resultant fear disappeared and acceptance settled in.  I had approached the situation in a mature manner despite my initial hesitancy and anxiety and his reaction didn’t toss me.  We were able to patiently give him the time necessary for our communication to be processed and a peaceful resolution quickly followed.

Fear normally would have brought up a defensive reaction from me towards this experience, but instead surrender and sacred grace allowed me room to grow.

What have you resisted lately?

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Spiritual Intimacy


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 The date is drawing near for my upcoming spiritual retreat, May 18th.   Last September was my first experience at this retreat, which I attended with my wife, and it was unforgettable.  I was graced with more than one opportunity to be in the presence and imbibe the teachings of my Spiritual Master as well as experience a spiritual intimacy with my wife the likes of which I’ve never known.  I am looking forward to the purifying inner work and the energetic and physical cleansing provided during and after this retreat. 

Often times, prior to such retreats I experience an increase in the level of my emotions that often makes me uncomfortable. Things from the past mostly, things that I’ve been working on for years that seem to rear their ugly head at times like these.  Trust issues, self-doubt, unworthiness, anger and irritation, etc.  These are feelings and emotions that my “small self” would love to bury rather than experience in their fullest, in turn freeing me from their egotistical and dualistic worldly bondage.  I’m in the midst of those feelings now.  Part of me knows they are temporary, yet my ego wants me to believe the opposite. How do we get to the point of being able to free ourselves from this internal ego-generated madness?

Know Thyself  – this is the theme that I’ve been contemplating this month as part of my daily spiritual practice. This contemplation and daily focus gives me true knowledge of myself and answers the question above.  I’ve had to train myself to see me as God sees me. Repetitively change and/or stop that endless cycle of thoughts and judgments that crop up from my ego.  Know that I AM worthy, I AM trusting, I AM self-confident, I AM deserving.  Simply know I AM.

After my retreat I will quickly forget how I feel now, because, like last year, the feelings now have reminded me of similar feelings I had prior to the retreat last year.  In so many ways I have grown as an individual and as a husband.  How I’m reminded today the work I still need to do.  I AM knowing myself, my “higher self”.  Life is a journey and these internal struggles are resulting in an increased intimacy with myself and others. A conscious evolution of my soul all within the context of my God and Masters’ Sacred Grace.

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Let’s Share

Well, here we go…

I’ve been looking for a way to help others and connect with other householders consciously involved in the daily experience of spiritual evolution.  I’ve come to believe that my evolution of consciousness, in the midst of this particular life, can best be understood by sharing it with those of you who may wander here.

I want to hear from you and I welcome and look forward to your comments, ideas, opinions and suggestions.  Glad you’ve joined me in the midst of this Sacred Grace….

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